Woman Cross Dresses for Power & Sex

Much in the way that a service person in the military dons their uniform or a police officer transforms their person, when wearing the badge, the gun, and taking the oath to serve and protect society, as if putting on a uniform that not only disguised but also that redefined who she is, Sarah soon realized that donning the clothes of a man affected her not only physically but also mentally and emotionally. No longer feeling like an ordinary woman and unable, of course, to feel like a real man, in limbo between female and male, unable to go back and unable to go forward, feeling how a male cross dresser must feel, when needing to wear a dress, she was stuck somewhere in the middle.

With insights inspired by dressing like a man, already there emotionally, Sarah knew, not that she wanted to be a man, that she couldn't pull her sexuality change off in the way that Chaz Bono had done. If she didn't know any better, if Chaz hadn't been the daughter of Cher, a celebrity, but an ordinary person, she'd think that Chaz was born a man. Yet, truth be told, Sarah wasn't trying to fool anyone. Truth be told, she wasn't even a lesbian or a bi-sexual. No doubt, in honor and in memory of her father, perhaps a woman who needed therapy, she was just a woman who wanted to dress as a man. Surely, if she was trying to make people believe she was a man, she'd bind her breasts, remove her makeup, cut her hair, and take massive doses of testosterone to change her voice and to give her facial hair, in the way that Chaz had done.

If she was trying to deceive people in thinking that she was a man, instead of looking like some abnormality from the cover of Esquire and GQ magazines gone wrong, she wouldn't dress as perfectly, as she does. No man, but Carson Kressley, Tim Gunn, and Mr. Blackwell, dresses that way. If she really wanted to deceive people into thinking that she was a man, she'd buy a pickup truck, don a sweatshirt, and wear jeans, sneakers, and a baseball cap, which, by the way, is not only how most men dress but also how most women dress, too, but for the baseball cap.