The Ultimate Cock Ball Torture

I miss my cock. Sometimes.

I had one once - one of my very own, connected right to me - but now it's gone. Never thought I would miss it.

I'm sure you've guessed by now that I am a full transexual. I had the boob job and started hormone treatment years ago and felt much better as a shemale than as a male. Just being gay I got my share of cock to suck and to be fucked by, but as a shemale I got so much more I couldn't believe it. For the most part I still loved my own cock too, but a year ago I thought it would be the ultimate in kinkiness to go ALL woman and have my cock not just circumsized but cut right the hell off. I thought then I would really get off. Cock in the ass, in my mouth, and then in my new custom-built pussy.

I mean what a paradox. I would constantly jerk off my cock because I was going to have my cock cut off. My cock was hard all the time because I was turned on by the thought of the ultimate in cock-ball-torture: No more cock and balls at all!

Being in a liberal country like Canada I had no problem finding a doctor and a place for the boob job and likewise no problem in the cock removal planning. There were several options. I could have the cock cut and reconstructed backwards, inside me, so I would still have a male type orgasm (sometimes) but in reverse. Or, I could lose genital feeling altogether, make another hole for men to fuck but basically get all my pleasure from sucking cocks off and by feeling cocks cum up my ass.

Then there was the extra twist that helped me make up my mind. By having my cock completely removed (option 2 above), I found a secret place that would stuff my old cock so I could display it as a trophy to my new all-woman triumph. The doctor and hospital couldn't be told my plans. The deal was that I told them I wanted it cut off full and complete, then frozen in case technology ever allowed real cocks to be donated and fully used by transexuals that go from women to men. Cryogenic cock.

All that went well.